Emotional Rollercoaster

Love, what a simple yet complex word. That four letter word is defined as a strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties, as in a maternal love for a child. It is also defined as an attraction based on sexual desire and affection. OK that's still pretty simple and easy right? Well, that tiny word is so strong that we sometimes run from it. We run because of the effect that it can have. It's an emotional word that takes many of us on a roller coaster ride especially when you go through a breakup. Do you remember how you felt when someone you loved said, "I don't think this is going to work"? Perhaps you didn't even get that. Maybe you just woke up one morning expecting that 'good morning' phone call but that call never came. Your calls went unanswered or returned and you went to bed each night wondering just what happened. You wondered what you did or didn't do to make this person just walk out of your life.

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You thought I didn’t see you

But I did

I watched you with jealous eyes

As you took her hand

And helped her out of the car

Your gentle kiss on her cheek

Brought a smile to her face

That kiss once belonged to me

And I wondered what she did so differently

I wondered why you chose her

I know you thought I didn’t see you

But I did

I felt the anger build up

As you walked out of the flower shop

You carried a fresh bouquet

of white lilies

Those were my favorite

You once told me that they symbolized

The purity of our love

What a fool I was

You thought I didn’t see you

But I did

The sadness overwhelmed me

As you tip-toed thru the bedroom

And gathered your things into that

Old green duffle bag

I wanted to jump up and beg you to stay

But I couldn’t move

I just laid there

As still as the night

Watching my life walk out of the door

Without a single goodbye

     Copyright © 2008 Joyce Oscar