SUFFOCATION

i can't breath

the noise in my heart suffocates my mind

and it wanders off to a place of lonliness

and life is meaningless because

i can't love

my heart is hardened

like candy on an apple, sweet but tasteless

getting stuck in the crevices causing aches and pain

and...

i can't dream

the ring of the telephone

sends waves of anxiety throughout my soul

and a comforted eye is just an illusion

and now i can't live

i know his tragedies are not my own

and yet they are...

because karma comes from the sins of the mother

and God knows my crops are plentiful

no...i can't live

because who wants to bear the burdens of another

when the time should be spent sipping coffee

and watching the birds dance from limb to limb

oh God I can't dream

because the depth of the darkness

is not enough to hide the ugliness that occupies my REM

so i lie in wake staring into a ceiling of emptiness

hoping that morning will come soon

allowing me to love...live...dream

i'm broken and battered

confused and bitter

i can't breath...

just

can't

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